With Love ♥

Busy for the whole day, not very sure how dear felt that day, want to know her more, just want her to be happy, but yesterday i think she's moody and i don't have to with her, i'm sorry dear, i did try to spend some time with you but i'm really busy. T.T sorry dear, will try to change what am i, dear you have fever, really worried, keep asking are you alright, are you alright? Haha, so worried, hope to be by your side that time, so i can take a eye on you and hope you really could recover.

Now really need a new webcam, dear complain it is too dark and blured, so have to change another one, so dear can't complain so much about it. haha Having her in my computer screen for hours, voice in my ear for hours, and i did really enjoyed it and having fun perli about her, tease her, play the fun of her, joking with her, made her laughing and laughing, see how happy she is, and i'm very happy about that, she is happy i will be happy too. How could i didn't realised that, i haven't updated my blog, disappointed her to 2 days i think, kinda angry with myself, when i reach home is already 12:45 and i was in the bed at 1 something, Gosh my cousin keep waking up and made me can't really sleep well in the middle of the night. T.T But tonight he is going to sleep with my mummy, so nice right? I'm happy too so tomorrow will have a nice and good day with my dear dear, so happy and excited!! Can't wait for tomorrow, the feeling of hugging her, kissing her, by her side, holding her hand, hugging with my warm hands, give her my temperature, oh my, so excited about tomorrow, really really excited, never been so excited before, is it loving and want to see someone, the feeling is like this, even want to meet her also will feel nervous, wow, sweating just now. Hands are wet!

Today having my first day tuition at Anthony Tan, Physic and Chemistry, I was there chatting with William and Jing Kai, Lols William was telling me him stories, about this about that, telling me about his stuff, ( girls, clothes, money, everything) he is really a good friend, taught him a lot of things. Haha, hope he really got what i taught him today, hope he really absorb what he learnt today. xP Funny him, is like i understand him more then he understands himself, faint with him.

Don't know why i miss my dear every moment, every time when i am happy, i want she to know and i want to share with her, i want to share every happy moments i have with you my dear, i want you to happy to be with me, because i'm extremely happy with dear, i really can't hardly describe how happy am i. Is just like happy from inside, sad from inside, moody from inside, miss her from inside, love her from the inside, my eyes is just her, only her, nobody else, lost interest in another people, just nothing no another feeling to people around, can't really express how i really feel to her, simple 3 words, I love you, i really do, dear.

She can cook?! Oh My God, i must be dreaming? one day i must try the things she cooked, haha, i really want to taste how is her cooking skills, dear must cook for me ya. xP i really like to see dear wear skirt or dress le, she really look nice on them. I meant REALLY look nice in skirts and dresses.

Miss her so so so much, craving of looking at her right now, even through is just a few seconds, or maybe mini seconds, i also willing to have the time, the only moment! Tomorrow is gonna be a good day! I bet! xP

You'll always be my babe!

♥ Lisa, My Baby

Special

I want to see you,

But miss you MORE,

Love you the MOST!

As Long As I Love You,

You're Mine! ♥

Counting And Hoping

One thing that had been in my mind, what do you really want? Yesterday night, i realised what i really want, I wanted her, I just wanted that's all, i don't care how people commented or how people looked at us, don't matter how hard we will be go through, i will hold on and continue to breathe with you, cause you are my breath of living on, you showed me what's important in my life, you showed and lighted my life with your love, you showed who's do really care me, you showed me how go on, no tears could really solved the problem, you showed me my weakness and showed me i'm not that tough that i thought i always was. I want the feeling that you are beside me, thinking of hugging you every second, hoping of meeting with you, counting the days, having the desire of having you in my life, i can't lose you in my life, you gave me love, you showed me how to love again, you gave hope, you gave me target of living on, you showed that you are always there for me, i love you, this love is nothing but true. Every questions you answer for me in my mind.

Every night i was think, why i can't really study well, this question is always in mind, no matter how hard i tried, every time my mind just gave me the reaction is go sleep much easier, why have to suffer? Hate it every time this kind of situation happens, changing myself, trying!! But why can't i really change? Is it i didn't put too much effort in it? Is really crazy thinking of all these boring question, but it really do affect me a lot. ==

Cried last night, i was thinking why am i really crying? Is it because what mummy said? Or i cried is because i haven't cried for a long time? After crying, feeling very exhausted, sleep straight away, feeling so tired now. Feel to do nothing and make myself numb then go think what's for my future? I don't want give my mum anymore promises, just a excuse for her to scold me, i hope she will give me some time and i could really change myself, i hope she does really understand what problems i'm having then to see the results and not solving the situation with scolding or nagging. Is it study can have a bright future? Is it study well can really help my family? Is it study well can prove a lot of things? Is it study well can give relief to my parents? Is it study well can change everything? If does, should been hating myself for not doing good in my studies? Feeling dizzy and confused of all this questions in my head, stupid coconut head, nothing to do but just chasing girls? LOL.... == I just want a long and steady relationship, that's all. All i ever wanted is a person to love and be as long as we can really hold, many answer to my question, i can't give up and show any weakness now, now is the time to hold on to continue to love and to continue to prove to her.

I'm sorry,

I can't be perfect,

I try hard to make it,

I just want to make you proud,

Nothing' gonna change the things that you said,

I will prove to you i really can do it

She is the one,

The only one i always wanted.

Love my dear. ♥

Stress.

Feeling kinda moody last night, lucky got dear there helping me, think of dear, then cool down myself, so i won't simply act in front of people, lols, i was swallowing everything what my mother said, then relax myself, don't want people around me to suffer, thanks to dear, after i called her two time i feel much much better, i want to be with her thats all, nothing wor, i will prove together with dear, i could study and be with her, oh yeah, mummy said get 70 above can get to take car licence, sing to dear, yeah yeah yeah, she always said nice, but i don't think lo. xP as long as she love it, i'm happy too, every songs also got it meaning, and all i mean is true and never lie, dear i won't lie to you, as long we are together, we are never be splinted. xP

As long as i love you, i will give my everything to you.

Love my babe.

Holding On

Firstly Merry Christmas to dear and my friends xP

Today wasn't a very good day for me actually, made my precious moody, haiz... didn't mean that la dear, sorry huh, really sorry. Dear today didn't write blog today? hmmm... hope she will write anyway. xP

Today only i realised that she is damn everything to my live, when i saw her message, gosh i was like... don't know what to do next, what should i really do? Where are all my confidence? LOLS? I was totally nervous, silly me, this is the feeling of love then only i realised that is should make her happy and smile back instead right? == but i was late to do that, after i called her, i still have some bad feelings about is she really okay dy? Really worried about her, oh my, can't imagine myself could really take our my phone and look at her picture and touch at my screen imagining myself touching her face, oh my god!!! I missed her till didn't really realised what am i doing, i was shocked at myself too, in my mind was only her, the whole mind keep appears her smiles, her laugh, her pheak chek face, her eyes, her lips, appears every time i miss her, her face was there in my mind the whole time, i was speechless with myself. Oh my god, now only i know what am i really moody for, i missed her, missed her until i felt moody, just because too wanted to see her, oh my god, when i reach gurney, girls everywhere, i was totally loose interested in them at all, not another eye on them, not even wanted to see them also, they were all transparent in front of me, i really hope she was there with my, by my side, hope to see her at New Year Eve, wanted to enjoy happy moments with her. So today didn't went to see the fireworks i guess, went home at 1 something, dear asked me to text there when i reached home. xP

She is all i ever wanted.

Felt empty when she's not around beside me.

Today is an good example.

Totally empty!

Love Her!

Insomnia

Too happy until can't really go to bed,

Today was really a special day,

A extremely happy day to me,

Barely want to go to sleep right now.

I love her so much, so so so much!

I hope to give her a hug right now!

I hope to kiss her lips right now!

I hope to see her right now!

I'm having insomnia because i'm missing her!

Special Moments

Last night i did sleep well, not nervous at all, just having some headache and off to bed so early, haha, super doper tired, umm to myself, left dear alone that night, dear's blog is kinda lack of feelings to writing the blog, haha, she's so funny and cute today, oh my god, how come she's so childish huh? Keep letting me to bully her, i feel extremely happy and tired today, wow, she's so playful always making me laughing about her things, she showed me something today, something that she hated a long time, Try to convince her anyway, hopes she really listens, Dear, i don't care how the person you are, how bad or how worse is your skin or personality either your attitude, is you i ever wanted. xP Had lunch in Dear's house, thanks to uncle, dear, your parents is also very good and kind le, love them too. Just lack of topic to chat only, maybe a few time we will make up together, forced to vain with her, aiyoyoyo, keep candid with her camera, She is so VAIN, have to admit that, one day never take picture, she will die i think, haha, went to play water today, it was fun, not only fun, totally rock, not the water we are playing is fun only, is the moment when i'm with her, there standing in front of her, just looking at her, concentrate at her, just her, nothing around me i felt, even the hot sun was there shinning high temperature on i felt nothing, don't know why, she was just in my eyes, only person, although her friends was there, i didn't bother to care about them, she is the only one i'm concentrate of, wow, the feeling is so so so, don't really know how to describe it, the feeling so perfect! After went to dear house, then went basketball with my brothers, Ah Jo, Ah Min, Ah Po, and Jun Shen, haha all are my superb brothers, what also can kap siao eh, always shoot here shoot there, haha, then went to night market, gosh really lazy to text, sorry huh dear, didn't mean that anyway. xP

Can't think of what to write. xP

She's Irreplaceable!

Loving Still

I love her totally!

So much.

She is the one

Fourteen December,

a true love starts,

never fall apart,

never gave up,

loyalty is drawn,

time is ticking like never ends,

our love never fade!

there's no forever,

but a chance to be together,

holding on to be forever!

love my babe. <3

Poem made by:

With my loving heart.

Max

A week had passed

I guess today is the first week i and baby, haha silly me, counting days. LOLs. ==

This day, dear went really busy today. Haha, i, well as usual, looking at the computer, playing some games, and watch movie. Lol.. boring day kinda having, thought was following out with dear, but end up didn't make it. =) Yes, this morning is totally a misunderstanding, lucky my good girlfriend understands well. Proud and glad of it. =)I miss baby today too, having such huge desire of hugging her now. First thing i meet her i sure hug her tight tight one. Miss her so much. T.T Went for a haircut today. =)

Not bad right? xD

Meeting up new friends in the saloon just keep kap kap kap, say here say there, discussing many things, haha keep laughing too, good to have them. xD Promised dear have to write blog, missed once, cant let her down this time. =)

I can't get you out of my head,

Don't care what is written in your history,

As long you're here with me,

As long you're by my side,

You belong with me!

LOVE dear. <3

You are my everything

Plenty of loves,

Max

xoxo

Pictures from Genting, 18th-21th

It really smells bad ==

Oh my god so hiao, with cousin. =)

The necklace, ready to give someone

My cup of tea =)

Vain because of her. haha

My tea time when in The Pavalion

I'm so in love with this

Gosh! All new arrival! Splendid!

zzz the row, it took me 1 hour and 15 mins to play a ride. ==

Genting, ==

Don't Give Up!

Finally i remember to update my blog, to let my love one know what am i think right now, one thing will not change is my love to you, and now you're dreaming, all this are reality, everything i said and i did all are real and nothing is a lie. My love won't be a lie, no one could really change my heart to you, and the person is my dear. Why did you cry you never tell me, you know how sad am i right now? Why you did suffered but never a word to me, why didn't you tell me anything of it? I'm sorry that i can't make you feel safe, i'm sorry i made feel everything is like is changed, but nothing is changed, everything is the same one, i didn't write blog is because i'm really very exhausted, so i think of tomorrow i only go and update. Sorry dear, i didn't mean to make this happen until i read your blog and only know that you feel very unsafe, sorry, she is nothing to me, she is nothing compare to you dear, she is just a friend for me now. Sorry, dear you didn't honestly tell anything about that situation, i love you i really do, nothing is more important then dear dear, if dear want to cry, i will give baby a hug and lend baby my shoulder, sorry dear, if dear want a hug i will hold baby and hug baby tightly, sorry dear, if dear want me to tell you how much i love you, i will prove to you, sorry dear, sorry dear, sorry dear! Sorry. if dear want me to be your side, i'm always there for dear, sorry dear. My love is always here for dear. I want dear to be happy, so that i'm only to be happy, I want dear to be happy to be with me. Dear, don't be emo, sorry dear. I'm very sorry.



Nothing has changed,
i'm still here for you,
i'm still here loving you!
I'm yours, and you belong with me!
You're mine ♥
M always loves L

Shopping Day

Today morning woke up at about 11 something, let my stupid cousin asked to wake up, damn sleepy. xD Wow, today morning was a kinda hard morning, accidently let dear misunderstand, gosh, my auntie house no line huh dear, sorry sorry sorry, made you call me so many times after i went down and outside there, received 7 message, 3 missed call, wow, shocked and faster call dear, then explain everything to dear, lucky she is so a understanding girl, glad to have a girlfriend like her. So good girlfriend, where to find? Haha, Dear, i won't live to see another day, i swear it's true, because a girl like you is impossible to find, you are impossible to find! xD Todayt went mms a lot too, gosh didn't expected today i went so vain also, hahaha... mms with dear, Dear all your picture you sent me today all also very nice le, and i didn't expected myself that, i could be that vain also, dear sent me one i sent back dear one, hahaha. After that, went to kl by car, went to Sungai Wang, waiting Yee Min to come, but end up she didn't show up, it was kinda disappointed too. sorry huh dear, didn't mean to put my anger on you, i was slightly out of control and didn't care for dear's feeling, sorry huh dear, i was OUT OF CONTROL! == sweat myself, hope dear won't mind, cause my k sister didn't show up and i called her many time and she could answer my call, lucky my well, good, kind, friendly, caring, loving, funny, understanding girlfriend could understand the situation, i blamed myself and dear some more didn't scold and still comfort me. Wow, touched, felt very happy back, and happy with having a good girlfriend. hehe =) went to nike shop, converse, adidas, found many nice things in adidas, love the shoes, basketball shoes, oh my.. i want them all. and the clothes too. one jersey i wanted too. gosh rm99.90 gosh! faint, the price is more nicer than the clothes! == Faint! Then continue to walk, walked to Pavilion, wow, leg is going break down soon. No place to sit then found a coffee bean bought Vanilla Ice Blended and a slice of cake, nice! hehe, Dear java chips is nicer? okay okay, i will try it next time. =)Dear you are understanding, so am i okay? hehe i know you don't want me to go with your god mother okay okay, then one day we date at your house okay? hahaha.. xD today was missing dear again, badly.

A Day At Genting Highlands

Woke up, the first thing is should clean myself, but i woke up at 5:40, and i missed my dear's message, awww... come on, sorry huh dear, didnt meant to miss that one out, i thought that i could wake up on time, i didn't know that i slept over the time, well, after i switched on my phone, i see my dear's message, it was kinda a touching way and a pain way, because she woke up so early just want to accompany me, dear thank you, you don't know how much i had touched for that message, just a single message would really touched me and made me feel very awake and to prepare a new day. Well, dear did treat very very good to me today. It was hardly to express what it really feels like, when i was in the car, i wanna to call dear, but my mother complained about i text with who so early, gosh! Not that i scared she knows, but to say things bad about me. Haizzz.. She is always like that one, don't mind it ya dear. =) Dear ah, want to try Twilight Books? Quite nice too you know, you sure have read one, then you will know how is the language and the descriptions, nice too... The first series what not bad, another you have to try yourself already dear, for me it is really good. Dear dear dear, you should sleep more today what. Like that you will feel very sleepy one, and you didn't rest a lot, i know dear wants to accompany me, but have a proper rest then have more energy to accompany right? Dear today you got gastric... grrr.... you know how pain in my heart was? == Dear want me how sweet i also can one la, you want me how good i also can one, i want to treat my dear the best i could, i want nobody nobody but you! Dear's copy right huh? gosh my dear, so many copyrights huh? eh dear, next time we try to talk through phone in english huh? hahhah... want to try something new. When i was on the way to genting, gosh i keep sleeping and sleeping and sleeping, totally forgot about my dear, sorry sorry dear, i had been very bad and very fu yan today, sorry sorry sorry, will you forgive for my mistake? I will try to change myself. I just answer those questions that my dear asks, haiz, i should be the one who have to act what, how could a boyfriend let his girlfriend acts first right? Everyone agrees with that too. Failed, failed badly too. T.T Hope dear won't mind. >< genting ="="" angel =")

Words are down at 2:42am

Promised baby to write blog everyday,

so have to write for today,

sorry to take so late to write this. ><

with LOVE!

Baby, i miss you, BADLY!!!

M ♥ L

At first

I was a boy with lots of lots of love problem, keep wondering that why i treat people so good until they cant hardly know that i ever existed. So i totally give up to love, after meeting this girl, i felt very comfort, so nice to be with her. After many day talking and chatting and making fun with her, i only realized that i had fall in love, deeply! And knew that she had a crush with some other guy, gosh.. so i had think ways to give her up, so i decide to start another new relationship and i have ruined, 2 i guess, bad isn't it? haiz... it was awful and hard to accept the fact i'm just a nobody, but she cheered me up with her laugh, it is really really happy and without any pressure to be with her. I did try ways to express my feelings during the midnight, well, know her well, know that she will really sleep early at night, but thought of her laugh, it made me comfort and give me a good rest during the night, everyday is waiting to text with her. I don't she believes or not, but i did had those kind of feelings before. Funny right? haaa....

In the middle,

What could really express the feeling huh. ki hiao wanna find girlfriends? Play with them? Lol.. After together with her. I realized that things changed, many things motivated me, and motivated me that she's waiting for me, i can't miss the opportunity to be with her right? Since she suits me so nicely. So i think for a night, and grab her with my heart, without anything could really stop me, and i succeed. I want to be with her, just the only her, the one who i loved, she is funny, caring, understanding, fun, comfortable to be with, and a good listener, to share jokes and problems with her. I do hope to have more time with her. Just to sit down quietly and just looking at here like that.

Never Ends!

Sometimes things are really hard to explain and express, now, i'm the one who is hard to express my love to her. Deeper than oceans? Higher then skies? She did shot a love arrow and sent me a love message to my heart and telling me to hold to continues to love, because that shooting angel is there for me, just out there, just take out my arm and grab it, just say it out loud! say that i loved her, i always do! I don't want she to be lonely anymore, i'll always be there for you, not more and not less but just you i wanted! I want to give you all the love that you can get, grab them tight. Hold me tight. Don't ever ever let go. Cause i only have you!

With ♥.

from Max

12:37

18.12.2009