With Love ♥

Busy for the whole day, not very sure how dear felt that day, want to know her more, just want her to be happy, but yesterday i think she's moody and i don't have to with her, i'm sorry dear, i did try to spend some time with you but i'm really busy. T.T sorry dear, will try to change what am i, dear you have fever, really worried, keep asking are you alright, are you alright? Haha, so worried, hope to be by your side that time, so i can take a eye on you and hope you really could recover.

Now really need a new webcam, dear complain it is too dark and blured, so have to change another one, so dear can't complain so much about it. haha Having her in my computer screen for hours, voice in my ear for hours, and i did really enjoyed it and having fun perli about her, tease her, play the fun of her, joking with her, made her laughing and laughing, see how happy she is, and i'm very happy about that, she is happy i will be happy too. How could i didn't realised that, i haven't updated my blog, disappointed her to 2 days i think, kinda angry with myself, when i reach home is already 12:45 and i was in the bed at 1 something, Gosh my cousin keep waking up and made me can't really sleep well in the middle of the night. T.T But tonight he is going to sleep with my mummy, so nice right? I'm happy too so tomorrow will have a nice and good day with my dear dear, so happy and excited!! Can't wait for tomorrow, the feeling of hugging her, kissing her, by her side, holding her hand, hugging with my warm hands, give her my temperature, oh my, so excited about tomorrow, really really excited, never been so excited before, is it loving and want to see someone, the feeling is like this, even want to meet her also will feel nervous, wow, sweating just now. Hands are wet!

Today having my first day tuition at Anthony Tan, Physic and Chemistry, I was there chatting with William and Jing Kai, Lols William was telling me him stories, about this about that, telling me about his stuff, ( girls, clothes, money, everything) he is really a good friend, taught him a lot of things. Haha, hope he really got what i taught him today, hope he really absorb what he learnt today. xP Funny him, is like i understand him more then he understands himself, faint with him.

Don't know why i miss my dear every moment, every time when i am happy, i want she to know and i want to share with her, i want to share every happy moments i have with you my dear, i want you to happy to be with me, because i'm extremely happy with dear, i really can't hardly describe how happy am i. Is just like happy from inside, sad from inside, moody from inside, miss her from inside, love her from the inside, my eyes is just her, only her, nobody else, lost interest in another people, just nothing no another feeling to people around, can't really express how i really feel to her, simple 3 words, I love you, i really do, dear.

She can cook?! Oh My God, i must be dreaming? one day i must try the things she cooked, haha, i really want to taste how is her cooking skills, dear must cook for me ya. xP i really like to see dear wear skirt or dress le, she really look nice on them. I meant REALLY look nice in skirts and dresses.

Miss her so so so much, craving of looking at her right now, even through is just a few seconds, or maybe mini seconds, i also willing to have the time, the only moment! Tomorrow is gonna be a good day! I bet! xP

You'll always be my babe!

♥ Lisa, My Baby

Special

I want to see you,

But miss you MORE,

Love you the MOST!

As Long As I Love You,

You're Mine! ♥

Counting And Hoping

One thing that had been in my mind, what do you really want? Yesterday night, i realised what i really want, I wanted her, I just wanted that's all, i don't care how people commented or how people looked at us, don't matter how hard we will be go through, i will hold on and continue to breathe with you, cause you are my breath of living on, you showed me what's important in my life, you showed and lighted my life with your love, you showed who's do really care me, you showed me how go on, no tears could really solved the problem, you showed me my weakness and showed me i'm not that tough that i thought i always was. I want the feeling that you are beside me, thinking of hugging you every second, hoping of meeting with you, counting the days, having the desire of having you in my life, i can't lose you in my life, you gave me love, you showed me how to love again, you gave hope, you gave me target of living on, you showed that you are always there for me, i love you, this love is nothing but true. Every questions you answer for me in my mind.

Every night i was think, why i can't really study well, this question is always in mind, no matter how hard i tried, every time my mind just gave me the reaction is go sleep much easier, why have to suffer? Hate it every time this kind of situation happens, changing myself, trying!! But why can't i really change? Is it i didn't put too much effort in it? Is really crazy thinking of all these boring question, but it really do affect me a lot. ==

Cried last night, i was thinking why am i really crying? Is it because what mummy said? Or i cried is because i haven't cried for a long time? After crying, feeling very exhausted, sleep straight away, feeling so tired now. Feel to do nothing and make myself numb then go think what's for my future? I don't want give my mum anymore promises, just a excuse for her to scold me, i hope she will give me some time and i could really change myself, i hope she does really understand what problems i'm having then to see the results and not solving the situation with scolding or nagging. Is it study can have a bright future? Is it study well can really help my family? Is it study well can prove a lot of things? Is it study well can give relief to my parents? Is it study well can change everything? If does, should been hating myself for not doing good in my studies? Feeling dizzy and confused of all this questions in my head, stupid coconut head, nothing to do but just chasing girls? LOL.... == I just want a long and steady relationship, that's all. All i ever wanted is a person to love and be as long as we can really hold, many answer to my question, i can't give up and show any weakness now, now is the time to hold on to continue to love and to continue to prove to her.

I'm sorry,

I can't be perfect,

I try hard to make it,

I just want to make you proud,

Nothing' gonna change the things that you said,

I will prove to you i really can do it

She is the one,

The only one i always wanted.

Love my dear. ♥

Stress.

Feeling kinda moody last night, lucky got dear there helping me, think of dear, then cool down myself, so i won't simply act in front of people, lols, i was swallowing everything what my mother said, then relax myself, don't want people around me to suffer, thanks to dear, after i called her two time i feel much much better, i want to be with her thats all, nothing wor, i will prove together with dear, i could study and be with her, oh yeah, mummy said get 70 above can get to take car licence, sing to dear, yeah yeah yeah, she always said nice, but i don't think lo. xP as long as she love it, i'm happy too, every songs also got it meaning, and all i mean is true and never lie, dear i won't lie to you, as long we are together, we are never be splinted. xP

As long as i love you, i will give my everything to you.

Love my babe.